This is, by far, the most

inspiring event I've seen in a long, long time. Susan Boyle, several days ago in the UK.

Mid-Week Catch Up

This has been a good week so far because:

1) I'm on an insurance-imposed break from chemo, which may be just what the doctor ordered. I find out next week. In the meantime--I'm lovin' it!!

2) Sold two items on Ebay--fun and I made a few bucks. Have more to sell.

3) Oscar and I called a truce. He's pooping outside again and I'm being more consistent with his routine and his diet.

4) Went through files again and filled another grocery bag with old papers to throw out--oh, the things that make me happy!

5) Wrote another chapter of memoir and posted it for my writers' group.

6) Made the decision to go to my niece's wedding in June.

Do these really need captions?

Friend

I looked for you again
an unexpected email
one of your old friends
feeling guilty that you died
she didn’t know in time
didn’t call you back that night
oh, the sorrows and regrets
googling ‘citicow68’ and
there you are, just like that
your name, face
really just a glimpse on the internet
some personal details
almost like reading someone’s journal
your honesty, fears
trusting others to understand
I didn’t know
you wanted to die in your sleep
not something a mother and son would talk about
in everyday talk easier
to reprimand you
for watching so much ‘South Park’
and have you done your Statistics homework yet
both of us in school then
pursuing the carrots we called dreams
pushing you on, onward
never really knowing how far you could go
but what would happen to you, if I quit?
your patronizing grin
trying to rub the anxiety out of my shoulders
you didn’t need pushing, only encouragement
did I give you enough?
tell you how proud I was that you kept trying?
kept going when life knocked you down?
I didn’t realize, until after
how many times you got back up, over and over
with a smile, a kind word, a thank you
so I stare, for the thousandth time, at your picture
the one nearest to what appears when I close my eyes
see the real you just beyond the veil
your love intact
your peace assured
I get your message
return the email
tell her
no regrets, my friend
only happiness
only love
only peace